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When you’re too old to be a prodigy

by Lisa on Saturday, May 15, 2010

I have been thinking a lot about art in maturity. There’s a tendency to delight in and glorify achievement that comes early—how remarkable! how surprising!—and assume, too, that this will be the best work in a lifetime. When else are we so passionate and intense and recklessly brave?

And if life flows along without anyone much noticing our young work, it’s easy to think, I’ve missed my chance. Earlier this week, my eyes were bothering me—itchy, teary, and dry—and I was regretting just how intensely and clearly we see when we are young. Do you remember how you used to feel color, not just with your eyes, but with your bones? I miss that.

Having so much on hold while we await the sale of our Chicago townhouse has induced an intense art-sickness. I’ve been gazing longingly at pictures of artists’ studios, and making notes about how I plan to commandeer space in our next home. “We so rarely entertain,” I wrote, “why can’t I just take the dining room or the living room? People when they do come over will be intrigued by how we live. It can start conversations.”

So, it was while I was feeling particularly late-middle-agey, all clumsy and ridiculous and irrelevant, that I came upon this quotation from George Eliot: “It is never too late to be what you might have been.”

I can’t express to you how much I love that thought. Then, last night, while I was sketching and doodling and planning the projects I will work on soon, soon, after we move, it occurred to me that I have so many more ideas for my art than I can ever complete.

This did not make me sad. When I was young, I struggled to find things to say. I was ripe with the urge to create, but had no ideas. There may be a case for art in maturity after all.

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LG Sunday, May 16, 2010 at 1:08 am

Lisa, absolutely agree with this quotation. We just think as we get older we can’t possibly start afresh or start over again or start studying or creating et al…I have always subscribed to what Ms. Eliot quoted above. So go for it! You’ll surprise yourself…

Andrea Vlahakis Sunday, May 16, 2010 at 9:43 am

Lisa, when I first came to the realization that I would not live long enough to do all that I wanted to do, creatively, I can’t say it made me sad, but it certainly was jarring. I still know that I will not accomplish all that I want to, but I know I will appreciate the things I do accomplish, and savor them more. Considering I’m someone who did a 180-career change in middle age, ducking the barrage of the you-mustn’t-you-can’t incoming, from just about everybody, I agree with Ms. Eliot completely. Go for it, Lisa!

Katie Monday, June 28, 2010 at 3:27 pm

Lisa,
Your post came to me at the most perfect time..I have just started delving a little more actively into my creative side..I’ve started writing again and taking on decorating projects Ive been avoiding and doing all sorts of things that I usually put off, as a “great idea, if only…”

I work in the healthcare field, and just the other day I was showing some of my little projects to a coworker who exclaimed..”You’ve missed your calling!!”..Im 27 years old, is life not really going to give me any more calls!?

I certainly hope that there is room for art maturity, and I am happy that you are settling into yours! I am just now beginning to articulate the feelings of my “youth” (i still like to consider myself youthful…), and I love your description of feeling ripe with the urge to create, as I am often feeling that way!!

Keep creating!!

Rob Wednesday, July 7, 2010 at 10:47 am

George Eliot’s valuable, concise quote must be making it’s way around the networks. I came across it at another blog a couple of weeks ago. Absolutely terrific thought. Have it now reminding me from a PostIt by my computer screen. Your post is from May so maybe you got the ball rolling! Thanks.

Lach Tuesday, August 3, 2010 at 9:28 am

Wonderful quote ~ thanks for posting. Inspiring and always timely.

Ishrath Wednesday, August 18, 2010 at 1:48 am

Your post got me thinking now! While young, things were great. Now, things are great too. We just evolve, thats all. I guess, when young, work with the old. When old, work with new!

Cin Saturday, August 21, 2010 at 1:33 pm

Wonderful quote. And I believe that our experiences make for richer, more expressive art in middle age and beyond.

I’ve been thinking a lot about energy and enthusiasm lately, remembering how the younger me embraced life. Now whenever I find myself feeling stuck or old or just bored, I just ask myself, “What would that girl do?” Unless it’s go out for ice cream, I usually do it.

So glad to have found your blog.

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